Pls help..is this a treachery????please answer honestly..ok?

i am 14years girl..actually i hate gents and boys because my dad deserted the family.i know all men are not bad.i don't have any elder or younger brothers..my school is a girls school..i don't have any way to be connected with men..i am happy about it..but the problem is that i fall in love with 30years lady,my teacher,my guide...we were close friends...we had broke up..that chapter is over..next is another 14yrs girl..we were just friends for past three years..i hated her the most because she always cheats me..but i have tendency to forgive soon because i don't get angry..we continued our friendship so close for the past two months...till now i cant believe how i started liking her..then i broke up with her..when i express my feelings to my dearer friends they tease me saying that i am like a ,i am not...my friends are the one's who go back of boyfriends at this age itself..though i hate boys i have wonderful dreams for my future husband..i wont cheat him..i wont cheat him..my friends are the one who do treachery for their future partner..but i think i am very pure ..does coming across past two loves which broke up makes me impure and is this mean i am doing treachery to my future husband?