Do you???????????

do u ever feel like u cant control what ur mind is thinking and you feel out of it? i have been taking meds for over 3 months and i dnt feel like they are helping. i am not driving still, dont have a job, still freak out if i go really far away from a hospital hense i may have a pam\nic attack. i thought meds were supposed to help not make u feel like killing urself. i am on lithim and being weaned of of effexor and take 2 mg of xanax. i feel like i am going out of my mind! help me please...